Letter Challenge Part 2 A.

dear guy I like,

I've liked you for a long time, we've dated before. It's usually ended within a week or two the first couple times we've dated. I've had some confusion lately on how stuff is, I didn't know how to handle it. One of our most recent break-ups hit me, big time. I hit a low. You called me a monster. A freaking monster. It's not like I have insecurities already, right? I'm ugly, you call me beautiful, or you used to when we were together. We've had our moments, and we've had our downfalls. Together. I don't know how to handle life without you to be honest. Or maybe it's that I don't want to. I really mean it when I tell you I love you. That's something I never joke about. I've been hurt too many times, I hate to hurt those around me. You were the second person that I have fell in love with. I could honestly see me with you down the road. I could see us having children and raising them. Hell, I could even see me conforming to your religion if it would make you happy. I've been to your church, I like it. It may frown on me, me being the way I am. You are the first straight male that dated me that knew I was bisexual. You accepted me, and told me I was beautiful, even when I knew it was a lie. I know that this break-up, I deserved. I fell for you. I fell hard for you. I just hope in the near future that we could be together again. If not, I'll understand, but I really love you. I really want you to know that.

~ Yumi Getsuei